--personal thoughts--
can anyone relate to a natural tendency toward perfectionism? it is sometimes very hard for me to laugh at myself or give any grace when it comes to my expectations of my time and commitments. so looking at the last few posts, i waiver between great frustration and an internal nudge to let it go. i just read my closing words from three weeks ago that i would cover second samuel, kings, and chronicles in like a weekend (three wknds ago) and rather than taking three days to cover these five books, it took three weeks to cover one of them! but i just have to stop here and wait...i just want to keep reading and writing and praying that God will use this.
a few years ago, my oldest two boys were riding their bikes. we have a little dirt road near our house that we follow home from the playground (at a church nearby) that they were riding uphill. i was following behind in my car watching the boys ride and noticing the perseverance of the younger of the two, sweet salem. he was still kind of learning to ride and uphill was a challenge. in the short distance, salem fell off his bike numerous times and i seem to recall offering to put his bike in the car and giving him a ride just to the top of the hill (but he refused the offer :) ). so...he literally fell off, got back on, pedaled like one rotation, fell. got back on, forced the pedals around, lost his balance and fell...got back on, pedaled furiously once or twice and fell again. but he kept getting on the bike. and he kept trying to ride. and even though he kept falling off, he persevered. and when he got to the top of the hill, i think i almost cried...it was such a beautiful thing to see him glide around the corner and into our driveway.
i've seen this picture in my mind so many times as a visual of the many falls and getting-back-on-the-bike-times that we've experienced over the last few years. but i just thought of it this morning in regard to asireadthebible.blogspot. for more than a year, i've seemed to kind of fall off and get back on a lot of lot of times. and i'm not sure when if ever i'll get to the place where it feels like coasting. but i know that i know that i'm not supposed to give up.
--old testament understanding--
i just have a few minutes left this morning, but will share this:
from first kings 8:57-58, "may the Lord our God be with us, as He was with our fathers; may He not leave us or forsake us, that He may incline our hearts to Himself, to walk in all His ways and to keep His commandments and His statutes and His ordinances, which He commanded our fathers" (italics mine).
He desires our hearts' inclination. can't wait to read and blog more about His desires for the israelites and for us....
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